It is time to roll! The NPC USA's are this weekend and I am packed and ready to go. We think we've made some improvements over my showing at the Jr. Nationals. I know I can smile BIGGER, we've figured out my color...now it's - go time!
With that said, I have personal goals. I carry with me the humility to recognize I am a little fish in a big pond. I have the wisdom to know I am a new competitor to the ranks of National status. I also have the strength of character to know I deserve to be there.
I have done the work, put in the time, focused my efforts, committed my body and soul to the process and believed in myself the entire journey. In these final days, as I completed my last workouts, and did my final cardio session...I rest knowing, the work is done.
Next we manipulate my macros, my water, my sodium, we wait, I rest...I eat, sleep, live and breathe for what I'll do on Saturday as I walk the stage showing my accomplishment. My rituals of preparation of hair, color, make-up...all icing on the cake as I prepare to take the stage.
Everything is timed out to the days, the hours, the minutes leading to prejudging where everything is put on the line. There is both a sense of calm and of excitement as I think about the days rounding out the end of the week.
Calm comes from knowing I've left nothing on the table. I did every workout, every cardio session, ate every meal, drank every ounce of water...did everything to prep completely according to my goals. Excitement comes from knowing the feel of the bright lights over head, and the sound of my feet as I climb the stairs to walk to the stage...and knowing the feeling in the pit of my stomach as I smile and look into the blur of lights out over the sea of onlookers - it's a mix of feelings rising in my stomach.
It's excited accomplishment. It's pride. It's the culmination of months, MONTHS, of preparation. It's a new beginning. It's love for what I've done. It's empowerment. It's love for those who support me, who believe in me. It's excitement for what I'll do next. It's being in the moment. It's recognizing the significance of where I'm standing. It's all right there in the pit of my stomach at that moment.
It's my hope you have things in your life which bring you the same powerful feelings, right in the pit of your stomach. For me, it figures!
Kris, you are such a hero of mine. I look up to you more than you know. I haven't figured out how to do the whole prep thing, along with the crazy job schedule & responsibilities with a smile on my face. I think you're amazing and genuinely hope you're rewarded with that Pro-Card! You deserve every second of this moment Kris!!!!
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